Junior Ganymede
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Bearing Testimony is Submission

February 09th, 2018 by G.

Why do people not want to bear testimony? the teacher asked. It was off the cuff. That was not what the lesson was about.

I thought over some of my experiences bearing testimony. Sometimes flat and uninspiring. Once, bearing testimony in an angry way in an argument as a way of staking out my position, like a bull pawing the ground–and the Holy Ghost took over and broke me and my arguer down into tears. Once, bearing testimony at a door on my mission as a way of breaking off a pointless dispute–and the Holy Ghost took over and broke me and the resident down into tears.

I think people sometimes hesitate because they hate the lack of control. When you bear testimony, you are turning yourself to God. You aren’t in charge anymore. You may break down when you didn’t want to, and say things you hadn’t planned. You may want to really touch your audience but nothing. Testimony proposes, God disposes.

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February 09th, 2018 07:45:15
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February 10, 2018

There’s also an intimacy between speaker and listeners when bearing testimony.

I don’t know if I’m describing this accurately, so please help me find the right wording.

When the Holy Ghost takes over, He – along with your cooperation/submission – projects _your_ spirit out from you.

I don’t know if this is accurate, but I sometimes think that the Holy Ghost turns the projection of _your_ spirit/voice into a “carrier wave” and He then superimposes His “modulation” on it as the message. Your spirit, thus modulated, boosted and projected, penetrates straight to the heart of the listeners.

Almost always, when someone speaks by the power of the Holy Ghost, I feel/sense _two_ spirits: the third member of the Godhead *and* the actual spirit (the spirit person/spirit body) of the speaker. I feel/sense an actual contact of the speaker touching me with their spirit body. Or, it may be some kind of spirit “rays” or “radiation” as opposed to being touched by spirit “matter”.

In such situations, I often feel/sense the emotions/feelings/conditions of the speaker’s spirit body, both positive and negative.

If the speaker, who is bearing testimony by the power of the Holy Ghost, has a wounded spirit (for instance, if they are an abuse survivor who has never fully spiritually healed) I experience that pain in a viscerally empathic sense.

When a spiritually whole and healthy person speaks by the power of the Holy Ghost, I feel joy, sometimes approaching the point of ecstacy.

On some occasions, if the speaker is in some “neutral” condition (not in a good/bad, saint/sinner spectrum, but more as if on a broken-vs-perfected axis) the feeling is so calming and hypnotic it can put me to sleep.

I’m overly senstive to something. I appreciate the ability to discern. But it goes beyond that, in that I synthesize or empathically internally mimic or mirror the speaker’s projections, perhaps like a chameleon mimicing its surroundings.

Back to your question why some resist bearing testimony… I think it can be too intimate and exposing for some, especially for someone who is not whole, or someone who is very private. Like wearing a skimpy or skin tight bathing suit at the beach, everyone sees your condition, or “senses” it.

We all wear our kibuki masks [looking at you, Vader], we all have our “public persona”. Blessed is the person whose public self is identical to their private self, and more so if their “self” is whole and complete (at least for their present stage, not ultimately).

Bearing testimony, and having the Holy Ghost shed forth on the speaker, is removing the mask and revealing the inner persona.

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